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Warning, the following journal entry is pure, unfiltered, vent.  

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I don't normally do this...  Well, I don't TRY to make it publicly heard, but I really don't want it idling around in my conscious anymore...  These past few months have been feeling tremendously off for me...On account of my first friends' passing and a slew of other matters involving friendly interactions, my point is I've been feeling absolutely depressed...

Since Ginger died, I was honestly hoping that'd be the only loss I'd have to encounter and that the rest of the summer could grow toward a slow but steady upturn.  Little did I know that the impact from that was only the beginning of the downfall.  Since mid-July, whether it be from my own warped senses or uncontrollable matters, I've felt that my connection to those I'm most friendly here on dA has started to dwindle.  And the worst part about it is, well...  It's mostly my own fault.

It took me a solid nineteen years for me to come to the ultimate realization that I'm a possible chronic victim mentality, and despite it sounding like it's coming off as "I'm always right, you're always wrong", well...  It's really the opposite in my case.  I fail to recognize the worst that I'm capable of even when I demonstrate it in the first place, and even if I DO realize it in the end, it's too late and there's nothing more that I can do.  It's like placing a band-aid over a shattered hull...

I've been crying non-stop for a good 24 hours, and there's no way I, or anyone can really stop it.  And it hurts.  Sometimes I pray for some one of my own OCs to knock at the door to tell me everything will be okay or to help me cool my conscious, because I fear there may not be such a thing on Earth...  This isn't the usually quirky, nice-guy Ikoma.  This is the real Ikoma...
  • Mood: Miserable

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XThePaganCanidX Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Student General Artist
Hey Ikki, you feeling better? :<
If not, then here's a little something to comfort you: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iw4gi4…
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RobertMacQuarrie1 Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014
Thanks for the watch.
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StretchyGalFan Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014
And again, thanks for the :+fav:!
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XThePaganCanidX Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2014  Student General Artist
Your webcam is pure gold. Giggle 
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XThePaganCanidX Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014  Student General Artist
Keco And Ikki by XThePaganCanidX I made a little gift art for you and Keco. :meow: Hope it's alright.
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StretchyGalFan Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2014
Thanks for the :+fav:!
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theresahelmer Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2014  Professional Photographer
Thank you so much for adding me to your watch list, i am utterly flattered :heart: ~Theresa
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XThePaganCanidX Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2014  Student General Artist
Um, hi there. ^.^

Do you think… uh… we could do an art trade? Well… only if you feel like it, that is. 
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Drakithu Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2014
Thanks for the watch!
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